Making Paper Cranes

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Mihee Kim Kort has released her first book on Chalice Press. And Making Paper Cranes:
Toward an Asian American Feminist Theology
is exactly what it says it is. 

Mihee was a seminary classmate (and intramural flag football teammate) a decade ago. Since then she’s been a blogging partner and a contributor to PLGRM, the magazine I help edit. She’s a clear and honest voice.

I’ll be blogging through the book over the next few weeks.

A word about my method. I’m not an Asian American woman. My experience of this book is that of a white guy who knows and thinks highly of the author. That’s perhaps not the best draw for a book, but I think any author would take it. In reading Making Paper Cranes I’m trying to understand better my friend’s experience, as well as that of the many Asian Americans that make up the church in which I serve. Finally (and this is not that big of a stretch, is it?) I’m looking for myself. 

Collision and Fragmentation

The soil of Mihee’s project is her experience of collision and fragmentation. Born to Korean parents, Mihee grew up in the American west, surrounded by white people. Her recollection is vivid:

Growing up going to mostly Anglo schools in Colorado, I got along with anyone and everyone. My close friends were Anglo-American and African American, and I had one Latina friend. I had a few Asian American friends, but in terms of those who were non-Anglo, there were only a few of us. I never received any overtly violent gestures of racism but there were those typical cliché moments when a kid would chant at me in an annoying, singsongy way, speaking gibberish and asking if I understood it, or our class would get a new student who happened to be Asian but Chinese, and the teacher would ask me if I spoke Chinese and if I could translate for them. Every so often there was a breakdown of groups, whether for kickball teams at recess or for projects in class, and though I remember watching groups of white kids sit together immediately, and the black kids slowly congregate together, I would look around, wavering, trying to feel out where I felt I belong the most.

Her upbringing yielded the “ongoing encounter of stereotypes, expectations, standards, and conflicting worlds” that she calls “collisions”. Those collisions, in turn, produced a kind of “fragmentation” for Mihee, “a disjointed state, like being in the middle of a pile of shattered, broken puzzle pieces.” 

I’m struck by the violence of these images. Hidden in that violence, though, is a loveliness trying to emerge. This is where the book gets its title and central image: the paper crane. Recalling her experience of folding cranes with her mother, Mihee describes the task as making “something delicate and lovely out of [an] intersection of creases.” There’s gospel in there. 

These collisions and their resulting fragments are all around, born by people I see every day. Half of the people I share a presbytery with don’t worship in English, and most of those are Asian. My experiences with them bear evidence of the kinds of collisions and fragmentation Mihee is describing. Clearly, I need to do more to understand them, to listen to them, and to honor their experience.

I’ve known collision and fragmentation too. They seem to be markers of modern life. The variety explored in Making Paper Cranes is specific, and it produces specific effects that need to be heard and understood. In listening to it, I’m eager to pay closer attention to the creases, collisions, and fragments of my life to see, as Mihee has seen, what “delicate” and “lovely” things they offer.  

Read Bruce Reyes-Chow’s review of Making Paper Cranes here

The Year in Review

Thanks to the readers of Yorocko for sharing part of the 2012 journey. I did you wrong for half the year.

A few highlights:

  • The series on Diana Butler Bass’s Christianity After ReligionReally the only substantial thing the blog accomplished all year. It took about a week and featured daily posts culled from chapters of the book. It got the author’s attention, somehow, which fueled the completion of the series. 
  • PLGRM Magazine. The product of texting conversations with the inexhaustible Landon Whitsitt, the magazine was born of Landon’s energy and infinite sense of possibility. We published two issues, and we’re planning on more. I got to interview Douglas Rushkoff. Douglas Freaking Rushkoff. 
  • The All Star Game. Brian Ellison is such a good friend that he invited me to join him in Kansas City for the Major League Baseball All Star Game. Gawd it was great. Brian is great. Really, really great.
  • Peru. In July I accompanied a group of 11 high school students and seven adults from the San Gabriel Presbytery on a 10 day work trip to Ayacucho, Peru. We partnered with churches and mission workers in the synod and did things none of us thought we could.
  • 10 Year Anniversary. Meredith planned a week for us in Napa to celebrate our 10 years of wedded bliss, and her folks came and stayed with our 4 year-old. Wine, mud baths, a hot air balloon ride, and terrific food: could anything be better?
  • Ministry collaborations. I have good friends in ministry where I live, a fact I know much more clearly today than 12 months ago. Becca, Paul, Reece, Erin, Erik, Jason–this crew led a junior high work week in June and then a high school confirmation retreat in November. Without this team, neither of these events happen. They made my year.
  • Ramak. My man stumbled into my work in July, and the time I’ve spent listening to him and working with him has been the most easily passed time of the year. He pitched me on the idea of a photo workshop with junior high kids, and he taught them how to take portraits with a Rollieflex. No small task. Some students were more into it than others, but working with him was 100% worth it.
  • Bucket of HoovesJeff Bryan is a terrific writer, and this year he published a quasi memoir that I gobbled up in days, practically hours. He’s the consumate human being, and it’s a delightful book.
  • Music. The Tallest Man on Earth; Best Coast; The Lumineers; Shearwater; A.C. Newman; The Gaslight Anthem; Bhi Bhiman; Big Deal . . .

Complacent or Content?

Confession: I hold something of a dismissive attitude toward the whole “leadership” publishing industry, particularly as that literature gets adopted by pastors. I’m uncomfortable with the equation of  strategies for profit-seeking businesses with strategies for growing churches.

That attitude, I realize, has been to my detriment. So when my PhD student friend recommended Leading Change during a recent visit, I took it as an opportunity for a fresh start with the whole “leadership” industrial complex and started reading it on the flight home.

Right away I’ve got questions.

The book lays out an eight step process for creating change in a business or organization, the first of which is to create a sense of urgency. Complacency, the book argues, will kill any push for transformation. As long as people are comfortable with the status quo, as long as people are riding on past success, as long as symbols of comfort abound, as long as the people are the top are telling a positive story, attempts to change things will be met with deadly resistance. Leaders must ramp up the urgency. They need to get rid of those symbols of comfort and stop those happy pep talks. They may even need to initiate a crisis. Anything to combat complacency.

The church application couldn’t be more clear to me here, whether you’re talking about a particular congregation, a presbytery (sorry non-Presbyterians), or a denomination. In the case of mainline protestant Christianity in North America, there’s no sense of urgency. Signs of past success are everywhere, mostly in the form of beautiful buildings. Membership is declining, but leaders are skilled at explaining that decline in terms of larger cultural forces affecting everyone, not only the church. We still have General Assemblies, and national media still cover them as matters of journalistic importance. And on the whole, we pastors are not trained to transform our churches but rather to manage them, to see them grow and endure by doing more of the same preaching and teaching and outreach, only doing it better.

That this represents a lack of the urgency required to fuel change is undeniable. Mainline protestantism has distinguished itself from evangelical Christianity over the last 60 years most notably in that lack of urgency. Like it or not, evangelical churches have thrived by making church participation a matter of urgent importance for one’s salvation: if you’re not saved you’re bound for Hell. Lutherans and Presbyterians have, on the whole, said the opposite, and that’s left us with little urgent business to coerce participation.

But here’s my question: what’s the difference between complacency and contentment? Where is the line between a church or a collective of churches contentedly trusting God with its future and complacently resisting transformation God may be calling for? I asked this question on Twitter, and here were some helpful thought prompts:

 What do you think? Where’s the line between Christian contentment and complacency?

Top Ten Tracks of 2012 (so far)

As in our Top Five Albums post, this one recognizes that we’re halfway through the year and a bunch of great stuff has been released. If I had to put only ten tracks into a playlist bound for a desert island, these would be the ones.

What about you? What are your favorite songs to come out this year? Put them in the comments and we’ll see what we come up with.

“Here They Come” by The Doc Marshalls

“You Jane” by The Wedding Present

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“The Marks You Make” by Rags and Ribbons

“The Lion’s Roar” by First Aid Kit

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“With The World At My Feet” by Big Deal

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“Ballerina” by Bhi Bhiman

“Teenage Dreams” by Nada Surf

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“We Are 1980” by Said The Whale

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“Big Parade” by The Lumineers

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“How They Want Me To Be” by Best Coast

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Top Five Albums of 2012 (so far)

Six months are down. Six to go. 

Here are five albums released since January I would take with me to an island vacation. My only rule for inclusion is my patented 3 Skip Rule: if I have to skip more than three songs on the album in order to enjoy it, it gots to go. 

Here you are then, in no particular order.

“The Only Place” by Best Coast

“Lights Out” by Big Deal

“There’s No Leaving Now” by The Tallest Man on Earth

“The Lumineers,” by The Lumineers

Actually I lied. There’s only four. There’s five or six others vying for this fifth spot, but my love of them is not as enduring as it is with these four. Bhi Bhiman, for example. Or Rags and Ribbons, The Wedding Present, Said The Whale, and Nada Surf’s latest. They may grow on me as the year goes, and they each have terrific tracks on them. 

Anyway, enjoy. I know I am. 

Chaplain To The Culture?

One of the phrases I picked up in seminary for describing the church I did not want to lead was “Chaplain To The Culture.” To me, this term describes the anti-missional church, a church and denomination that views its role as providing religious goods and services to people without expecting any Christian commitment in return. Think clergy-led prayers before football games and come-one-come-all baptisms.

But a couple of recent youth events have me questioning the usefulness of that dig.

In the last two weeks I’ve facilitated or helped to facilitate groups of young people working together to challenge themselves and to make their communities better. I have no prior relationship to many of these students; they’re not part of our church membership and they’ve never come to a church program before. Yet it’s pretty clear to me that the work we’re doing with them is exposing them to things about themselves and their world that are valuable and enriching, even if we never see them again.

All the while they’re praying when we pray and talking with us about Jesus.

So I’m starting to wonder if being a chaplain to the culture in this way is so bad. So what if we’re not strategically recruiting those kids and their families into church membership or even orchestrating a conversion experience? So what if their only experience of church is a weekend camp with a high ropes course where they say grace before meals and compare the last paintball game to following Jesus?

The “goods” and “services” being provided are pretty darn good and valuable, it seems to me. Not only for the young people, but also for their parents. And also for the wider world in which they participate. If we get just a small opportunity to enhance these students lives (and, by extension, their whole relational network) through a program or event, then that’s valuable work. We shouldn’t pooh-pooh it as settling for functioning as the “Chaplain To The Culture.”

The real problem with that slight is that it sells chaplains short. Chaplains are not mechanical dispensers of blessings and religious kitch. Chaplains accompany people–most often complete strangers–through crises.

If the church, then, can accompany the culture and walk alongside, why wouldn’t we do that? Why would we view that as something less than “missional?”

Put Me in, Coach (Youth Ministry Version) Revisited

TheYouth Ministry Coaching Program wrapped up this week with the last of six two-day gatherings in San Diego with the great bearded Mark Oestreicher. The balance of our time was spent sharing growth affirmations and challenges we’d all written for one another–a slightly awkward thing, sitting silent for 20 minutes as people tell you what they think is great about you and how you could yet grow (the awkwardness was relieved a bit when, just as one cohort member was extolling my “thoughtfulness,” my new ringtone went off).

Peter, Tim, Margie, Armando, Wes, Pat, Drew, Josh, Jesse, and, of course, Marko: thanks for your honesty and attention. You’ve all made me better.

In the next couple of blog posts I’m going to share some of the growth challenges I received. My aim is to hear how you all do the things I’ve been challenged to do and to broaden the community of practitioners I interact with.

For example, one very helpful challenge was to build my playful and silly side. I tend toward the straight-faced and analytical, so I need to seek frivolity in my calling.

How do YOU do that? How do you seek opportunities to be playful? How do you build silliness into your work? For those of you who do, what is the effect it has on you and your work?

Here’s something to get us started:

Made As Makers Is Weird. And Important. And Cool. And . . . Huh?

The giggle-inducing poet and theologian Callid Keefe-Perry has made a 45 minute “documentary poem” exploring the connection between God, faith, and creativity. “Made As Makers” releases June 1 on Vimeo, and after screening it earlier this week I’m certain church leaders and thinkers should watch it and use it, but I’m not entirely sure how.

First the certainty: Callid is an interesting cat and one of the more nimble thinkers plying a trade in the church today. He does improv theater, he writes music, he crafts poetry, he gives talks. He blogs here and here. If you have a chance to interact with him you should. You may come away scratching your head, but you’ll be smiling.

Now the confusion. “Made As Makers” is 45 minutes of people talking, and I’m not sure what to do with that. Unlike a standard documentary, there’s no overarching narrative, say about the financial crisis or the emerging church. It’s snatches of trailer-side conversations with thoughtful people being thoughtful–about God, about their faith, their creative aspirations (one guy shows off a prayer wheel he made out of some driftwood, a large dagger, and an old fire insurance token), and their hopes for the church. These are conversations you’ve had before, so “Made As Makers” isn’t breaking new theoretical ground.

But it’s not trying to either. It’s trying to facilitate a conversation about creativity in the church. That such a wide array of people, from Wild Goose-goers to study-bound academics, were willing to engage Keefe-Perry on the topic says something. It will need curating, but pieces of “Made As Makers” will serve as valuable conversation starters for spurring creative work.

The most interesting person to listen to, of course, is Callid Keefe-Perry. So if “Made As Makers” serves to expand opportunities for him to do what he does for a larger audience, then God be praised.

Christianity After Religion: Performing Awakening

In the fall of 1995, a revival of sorts washed over the campus of the small Christian college I attended in central Kansas. It consisted mostly in late night assemblies at “The Clock” in the central courtyard where an earringed, shaven-headed leader led earnest and penitent seekers in praise songs and intercessory prayer.

One night we had a guest speaker. She was the older sister of a student who was herself studying at Moody Bible Institute in Chicago. This fact gave her instant credibility. She instructed us from her personal experience that “Revival,” if it is to happen (as we all badly wished it would), “Begins with repentance.”

So we repented. We repented of our impure thoughts, our laziness in devotion, the crushing weight of our sin that we were sure was damming up the Holy Spirit. After a couple of weeks, the enthusiasm faded and the gatherings ceased. The awakening we envisioned never materialized. Or did it?

In the final chapter of Christianity After Religion: The End of The Church And The Birth of A New Spiritual Awakening, Diana Butler-Bass suggests that the kind of awakening my friends and I longed for doesn’t just happen. Rather, awakenings are performed as people commit themselves to a set of practices that enliven and demonstrate new spiritual realities. She writes:

Performance has always been important to awakening. In the First Great Awakening, George Whitefield’s preaching was the ultimate colonial theater. In the Second, the camp meetings were theaters of improvisation, where the converted acted out their encounters with the divine. In the Third, both Pentecostals and progressives displayed the public possibilities of racial integration, women’s leadership, and caring for the poor and outcast in the theaters of pulpit and political gathering. American religious history is marked by theatricality, and religious leaders display the faith as much as teach it.

Butler-Bass suspects that preparation, practice, play, and participation are the constituent parts of all of the awakenings that have shaped American faith, including the one she’s describing now. Preparation as people look closely at their faith’s story afresh; practice as people take on new habits of devotion and service; play as people experiment with boundaries and new norms; and participation as people take over the script and push awakening in the direction they need it to go.

This list makes me wonder if an awakening wasn’t happening among us on that campus enveloped by wheat fields at the end of the last century, and if it hasn’t continued unabated in the lives of its crestfallen participants. We encountered in those weeks a certain disappointment as the piety we’d been reared in proved incapable of bringing about the personal and communal transformation we yearned for. But the longer view of our years of learning together suggest to me that the awakening Butler-Bass sees today was stirring in us even then.

One of us is writing today about The Open Source Church. Another is training at-risk youth in Los Angeles to run marathons. Several others are social workers. Though we didn’t know it, perhaps we were performing awakening even then and sowing seeds that are sprouting today in the most unexpected ways. May it continue to be so.

Previous posts on Christianity After Religion

Great Awakening

The Great Reversal

A New Vision–Belonging

A New Vision–Behaving

A New Vision–Believing

When Religion Fails

Questioning The Old Gods

The End of The Beginning

The Beginning