I’m Not A Role Model

I heard the term “role model” during my last week of work, and every time I heard it I felt uncomfortable. There’s nothing I’m trying harder not to be than a role model.

You can always tell when someone’s trying to be your role model. They’re overly certain of their convictions, and their actions are telegraphed with purposeful intent in a way that feels inauthentic. They’re trying to change you to be like them because they don’t like you the way you are. Nobody who has tried to be my role model ever was.

No, my role models are people who aren’t trying to be, who go about their work in a way I notice, though they don’t know I notice.

Oh. Oh, I get it now.